Since moving to Denver from Toronto, Canada, I've felt an undeniable urge to explore different ways of self-discovery and get out of my comfort zone. From mind-body-spirit expos, to spiritual healing workshops in the mountains, to talking to a group of women while surrounded by horses. Maybe there's something about Colorado that instills change at this high altitude, or maybe it's just another step toward my evolution into the person I am meant to become. Either way, I have found myself being more adventurous and more open. It's amazing.

I've always heard that horses had unique energies and offer healing. So last weekend I decided to try something new when I saw an intriguing invitation to discuss the topic of "Striving Through Stress" while healing with horses. As a writer and speaker for many years, I have talked to various groups on ways to deal with stress from both a personal and professional perspective--especially with respect to the events that led up to my personal heart-health experience. I have always been a firm believer that we all need to be aware of our daily stressors and learn to recognize them before things get worse. I am living proof that if it can happen to me, it can happen to you. 
(Watch out for my upcoming book that delves more into these specifics coming late Summer).

I was never around horses much growing up even though my sister co-owned one as a teen and worked on several horse farms. But this horse healing adventure was calling to me (like all of the other events that I've gone to here in Denver) so I had to go and I'm glad I did.

The scenery was so serene and peaceful. A horse farm just outside the city. We sat underneath a beautiful tree in our sun chairs while the horses grazed in the grass around us; not knowing the other women or how we'd all end up sharing a special bond in a couple of hours. 

I felt a bit uneasy at first as I was not used to horses being so close, but I felt most of the fear as my stories unfolded in front of strangers. However I felt rejuvenated at the same time. The horses have an amazing sense of calmness in their own setting and around people. We just have to be open to the calmness. Every time we shared something that was on our mind, the horses would either move closer to us or glance our way. This was their way of showing compassion and understanding. The horses instinctively know when we need consoling, acceptance, or a sign that everything will be okay. I thought that was nothing less than magical.

​Some other things I learned from being around the horses that may help you:

1. You are never too young, too old, too inexperienced, too afraid, or too broken to receive love and support from people you don't know, or animals who may also feel your pain.
2. Our fears come out in different ways and so do our emotions. We must push passed them in order to heal and rise above. We all grow in our own time.
3. We often feel that everyone around us has changed, and that's what makes us confused and in a rut. But look in the mirror. It's most likely you that has changed. So learn how to agree to disagree and move on.

And lastly,

4. Forgiveness is the root to love and growth. We must learn to forgive and accept what may just be. You can't change others; they have to want to change themselves. You can only work on you because you are the one that has the power to alter your very existence and in return, our vibrations with others will eventually change. 

Thank you beautiful creatures. I hope to join you again soon. Namaste.
Yours in health, Kerrie 
xo

There's been a lot going on behind-the-scenes over the last several months. I'm happy. I'm anxious. I'm proud. I'm sad. I'm scared to death. I'm elated. Either way, I'm busy. Sometimes I just want to crawl into a hole and let my passions pass over me like a gust of wind. Just like most of my experiences that I hold onto as harsh life lessons.
As a professional writer I drown my sorrows, my triumphs and my excitement in words. It's what I do and it's what I do best. I love writing because the paper (or computer) doesn't have an opinion whether my words are good enough. My journal doesn't shout back at me, and my letters don't hold judgement. Not that I'm opposed to people's views of my work or what I create. There's just a sense of peace in what I do because it's done mostly in silence. Just like running or walking or hiking. You can choose to listen to music but there's something about being one with yourself in the moment.
In nature or in the light. The world of writing is my nature. Creativity is natural.
My pen is the wand and my mind is the magic that reveals my fantasy and reality. I do it on my own and I wait for no one to respond. However, this next venture will bring the old me out of my grave. I am about to embark on a new way of thinking--a public forum for my writing again and no one to blame but myself. My writing. My story, My vulnerability. My faith in me. Everything will soon be there for others to reflect and unwind. My hope is to release a book that will help others examine their own lives, not mine. I am open to it all and look forward to getting it off my shoulders. The words I have been playing with for so many years will be coming out shortly and I hope you join in the dance. The old will seem new again and brought to life. I can't wait to share it with you.  Kerrie